Monday, December 15, 2008

Space Coast Race Packet Has Arrived

When I got in from work this afternoon, a package was waiting for me on the kitchen counter. I instantly knew what it was. My race packet from SCM. I had forgotten it was even coming. I checked the return address to be sure, then opened it up. I am happy to report that not one tear fell. I'm ok.

I'm fairly certain that the reason this is so, is because I talked with Bill B about his race there and got to live vicariously through him. I also have matured a great deal since I pitched that fit when I had to drop out of that marathon. I've grown up I guess.

In all seriousness, I have come to realize something about my running. I started running because I had been pretty sick for a while and needed to gain back some strength. I'd felt so out of control of my own body for so long that reaching the goal of finishing the Sarasota Marathon meant maybe I could take back that control. Making a goal and seeing it through was so very empowering! Running across the finish line that day set me on a very specific road. Until today, I thought that road was "just" about running, but it wasn't. I think the reason I was so upset about not being able to run Space Coast was because I felt like I was giving up, even though I was injured. Didn't really matter the reason, I was angry about not being able to see that goal through.

During the time I couldn't run, I felt sad, but not for the reasons I expected. I was missing the Endurance team meetings/runs. I never missed one, not even when I was sick. I asked Jim, my coach, if I could help coach Runners Club under his supervision and he agreed. He has given me direction and guidance all along but has let me do all the runs. This gave me the opportunity to meet some newer runners and slowly get back into healthy running again. I've met some new people who have similar goals and I'm having a GREAT time! I love the social part of running. The races, training runs and just talking about all of it makes me very happy. The people I run with from Runners Club are very positive and energized about training. When I see and hear the excitement I can actually FEEL it. These moments are just as important to me as running across a finish line.

Running that 5K Saturday, in the freezing cold and wind, was fun. I was happy as I tried to push through that wind. My knee was protesting now and again, but I thought of Sherry, Scott and Sondra who I would never have met if not for running. I thought of Ed and Joan, who are very important to me. I thought of my coach, who gave me the attitude of how to enjoy running. Bob and Carol, who are also special people....there are just too many to mention, but you all know who you are. I thought of my husband Bobby, who at first laughed when I told him I was going to run a marathon but now tells me how proud he is of my accomplishments.

All of these things take the pang of dropping out of SCM.

That being said....I hope I kick Sherry's ass in that triathlon in April!!! LOL (luv ya Sherry!!!)


Glaven Q. Heisenberg said...

Running was never an end in itself for me either. I do it to get/stay relatively healthy. That doesn't mean I don't enjoy running sometimes. But I'm pretty sure I wouldn't do it if it weren't for the health benefit.

My knee's acting up again. It's somewhat frustrating having to baby it, but I just decided I'm not going to run again till 2009. Just give the knee a full rest till the new year. Because not running is not the end of the world.

So it's a good thing to stop and take stock every once in a while of why it is you run. We all talk about running, but running is what we use to introduce a whole slew of other topics, which are what we're really interested in. Running is the red herring, the Maguffin, as it were.

The rest of the stuff is the real deal.

Sherry said...

You really hit the nail on the head with this post, Kim. Running offers up so much more than just running itself. Like you, I have met so many wonderful people over the last year AND have found a piece of myself that had been missing. Prior to endurance sports, I didn't quite know 'what' that piece was, but now I know. And it wasn't just running... it was the friendships that have come along with it.

I'm SO excited that you are going to do Ft. DeSoto. We'll have to coordinate our accomodations, etc... If you need ANY help/guidance, please let me know. We can meet up and go over transitions, etc... I'll help you in any way that I can.